Foreword

Greetings! I'm Molly. This is my first blog experience and I'm pretty dang excited about it. There are a variety of reasons why I've decided to embark on this pseudo-assignment.
I'd like to make it clear that I am not an aspiring photographer, and I don’t pretend to be. Some of my closest friends and family are exceptionally talented in that area, but I can’t say it has ever been a genuine passion of mine.
Onto business. Recently, many of my Facebook friends caught my attention with albums titled “30 day challenge”, in which they followed a list of topics via photos that defined them. All of this for a period of - you guessed it - 30 days. I wanted to pursue this in my own way by making my own ‘list’. (Side note, I have planning this for the past few weeks; likely driving my roommate crazy by scrawling ideas onto paper in the middle of the night.) Regardless, I am excited for my ideas to come to fruition, and truly hope it turns out the way I have been imagining it. I invite you to leave comments on anything I post. I have always been a firm believer that knowing what everyone else thinks, does, in fact, matter. It puts things into perspective and allows us to be well-rounded individuals, which is definitely a quality I would hope to be recognized as.
One primary hesitation I have about this project is ultimately how self-centered it is. Completely. It can be chalked up to self-expression, art, or anything else… but in the end, things like this are primarily concerned with “me” and “I”. I struggle with this in an age of social media. Since the time I had a Myspace at age 16, I began this practice (we began this practice) of showcasing ourselves and finding endless ways to portray how unique we were. With Facebook and Twitter, I find it to be a double-edged sword. I want everyone to see… and yet, I don’t want anyone to see. Sometimes, all I really want, all I really need, is an outlet to mass-communicate my rawest emotions on a medium where no one is guaranteed to see it.
So…yes; with this project, I admit to being yet another self-dissecting 20-something. But I was programmed this way, and I have discovered a lot of important things as a result. This is about being honest with myself, regardless of all outside influences. This isn’t for you or for them, this is for me. It’s a time capsule. How will I feel tomorrow? In a week? a month? A year? Only time will tell.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Day 28: It's been too long

since I've gotten lost.
The good way, that is.
          Lost in a book. Lost in thought. Lost on the road when you have nowhere to be. Lost a game because you wanted someone else to win. Lost on what to say next. Just, ...lost.
          Life is not very exciting when you are always trying to be a step ahead, and constantly predicting what will happen next, the way I do. I forget that, sometimes, its good to be lost.  I spend almost every day caught up in a robotic progression of routines. Do this, and don't forget that. Do it in the same order as every day, as fast as you can, because there's no time. I can tell that it's high time to stop and smell the roses; it bothers me to be so habitual that I forget to pay attention to the things that would make my day, if only I noticed them. 
        Yesterday, while scouting out sites to take my photo of the day, I started to think about how different each day is. Besides being assigned to a different name and number, how differently can you distinguish one day from the other, really? We likely have changes in our personal schedule for each day, but other than that, would you really be able to wake up and know what day it was if you hadn't been keeping track? Then I thought about it in a bigger spectrum. Let's take away the human aspect, because all of us lead different lives and what's true for one person isn't necessarily true for another. I looked down at my feet and saw the ground beneath me, and I realized that it was the one true indication of difference; natural, pure, undecorated earth. If I went back to that same place today, the surroundings may look familiar, but something would be different. So much could have happened since I was last there; maybe the wind shuffled the bits of dirt around a bit. Maybe someone, or something, stood in the exact same place and matted the grass down. Maybe a bird dug around for something to eat. The reason why sometimes we feel like the days 'drag on' is because we're looking too close to be able to see everything else that's happening. We're only looking at ourselves, really. Take a few steps back, as many as you'd like, and you'll find something to make your day less bane and pale. There's a lot happening out there, and sometimes you have to get out there and find it if it's not knocking on your front door.    
Tomorrow can be as different as you want it to be.

1 comment:

  1. love this post...Nature is always changing. rarely is something the same, rarely is anything alike. Natural processes change things all the time, from the weather to evolutionary developments, to even sporadic natural disasters. Nature as an ever changing element is something spectacular, awe-inspiring, deserving of respect.
    Wish people could step back and watch nature a little more ( wish that of myself as well.)

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