Foreword

Greetings! I'm Molly. This is my first blog experience and I'm pretty dang excited about it. There are a variety of reasons why I've decided to embark on this pseudo-assignment.
I'd like to make it clear that I am not an aspiring photographer, and I don’t pretend to be. Some of my closest friends and family are exceptionally talented in that area, but I can’t say it has ever been a genuine passion of mine.
Onto business. Recently, many of my Facebook friends caught my attention with albums titled “30 day challenge”, in which they followed a list of topics via photos that defined them. All of this for a period of - you guessed it - 30 days. I wanted to pursue this in my own way by making my own ‘list’. (Side note, I have planning this for the past few weeks; likely driving my roommate crazy by scrawling ideas onto paper in the middle of the night.) Regardless, I am excited for my ideas to come to fruition, and truly hope it turns out the way I have been imagining it. I invite you to leave comments on anything I post. I have always been a firm believer that knowing what everyone else thinks, does, in fact, matter. It puts things into perspective and allows us to be well-rounded individuals, which is definitely a quality I would hope to be recognized as.
One primary hesitation I have about this project is ultimately how self-centered it is. Completely. It can be chalked up to self-expression, art, or anything else… but in the end, things like this are primarily concerned with “me” and “I”. I struggle with this in an age of social media. Since the time I had a Myspace at age 16, I began this practice (we began this practice) of showcasing ourselves and finding endless ways to portray how unique we were. With Facebook and Twitter, I find it to be a double-edged sword. I want everyone to see… and yet, I don’t want anyone to see. Sometimes, all I really want, all I really need, is an outlet to mass-communicate my rawest emotions on a medium where no one is guaranteed to see it.
So…yes; with this project, I admit to being yet another self-dissecting 20-something. But I was programmed this way, and I have discovered a lot of important things as a result. This is about being honest with myself, regardless of all outside influences. This isn’t for you or for them, this is for me. It’s a time capsule. How will I feel tomorrow? In a week? a month? A year? Only time will tell.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Day 10: A pet peeve of mine is that

I hate having people's debts, and vice versa. 
At the risk of sounding like a withholding miser who never learned to share, hear me out.
         I am slowly realizing that my personal definition of success (among other things) entails being independent in the sense that I don't expect to rely on anyone but myself for most anything. When I was young, almost everything that was given to me was unconditional; there was little I had to offer in return besides a smile, a hug, and a 'thank you'. That was it, and it was fine. In recent years, though, I have started to pick up on the fact that I can't ask for something without thinking twice on it. And, depending on the situation, I sometimes cringe when someone asks to borrow something from me. Someone reading this may assume that I am selfish of that I am constantly keeping tabs on what is 'fair', which is not at all true. I'm simply saying that I take pride in being prepared and having the things that I need, when I need them. In a way, everyone should.  
          We all have that person in our life who bleeds us dry. Whether it is emotionally, physically, mentally, financially, or otherwise; it gets draining when all they do is take until there’s practically nothing left. This isn’t to say that I don’t believe in doing unconditional favors for others; in fact it probably makes my day more than theirs when I do reach out in that way. Random acts of kindness and self-giving are what makes this life worth living at times. By nature, we are more likely to do nice things for one another when we feel that they will appreciate it and reciprocate in any possible way, whether this is tangible or not.
         
Always try to Give more than you Take.
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  1. AnonymousMarch 10, 2011 at 4:37 PM

    I enjoy doing nice things for people when they dont know its me...like a super secret santa or something like that. It feels great when they are so happy and don't know who to thank always the best feeling...

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  2. +mollyMarch 10, 2011 at 5:38 PM

    Absolutely! I can agree with that wholeheartedly... receiving credit makes no difference to me.
    I must say that I was very hesitant to post today's topic, as it puts me in a much different light than the others. It's easy for people to be judgmental when I'm putting my flaws right there, out in the open... accepting them. However, as stated in the foreword the day I began, I want to be as honest as possible to accurately capture who I am at this moment in time. The good, and the not-so-good.

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