Foreword

Greetings! I'm Molly. This is my first blog experience and I'm pretty dang excited about it. There are a variety of reasons why I've decided to embark on this pseudo-assignment.
I'd like to make it clear that I am not an aspiring photographer, and I don’t pretend to be. Some of my closest friends and family are exceptionally talented in that area, but I can’t say it has ever been a genuine passion of mine.
Onto business. Recently, many of my Facebook friends caught my attention with albums titled “30 day challenge”, in which they followed a list of topics via photos that defined them. All of this for a period of - you guessed it - 30 days. I wanted to pursue this in my own way by making my own ‘list’. (Side note, I have planning this for the past few weeks; likely driving my roommate crazy by scrawling ideas onto paper in the middle of the night.) Regardless, I am excited for my ideas to come to fruition, and truly hope it turns out the way I have been imagining it. I invite you to leave comments on anything I post. I have always been a firm believer that knowing what everyone else thinks, does, in fact, matter. It puts things into perspective and allows us to be well-rounded individuals, which is definitely a quality I would hope to be recognized as.
One primary hesitation I have about this project is ultimately how self-centered it is. Completely. It can be chalked up to self-expression, art, or anything else… but in the end, things like this are primarily concerned with “me” and “I”. I struggle with this in an age of social media. Since the time I had a Myspace at age 16, I began this practice (we began this practice) of showcasing ourselves and finding endless ways to portray how unique we were. With Facebook and Twitter, I find it to be a double-edged sword. I want everyone to see… and yet, I don’t want anyone to see. Sometimes, all I really want, all I really need, is an outlet to mass-communicate my rawest emotions on a medium where no one is guaranteed to see it.
So…yes; with this project, I admit to being yet another self-dissecting 20-something. But I was programmed this way, and I have discovered a lot of important things as a result. This is about being honest with myself, regardless of all outside influences. This isn’t for you or for them, this is for me. It’s a time capsule. How will I feel tomorrow? In a week? a month? A year? Only time will tell.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Day 26: This may go without saying, but

every person you have ever met should matter.
How you feel about them is irrelevant.
          I get in these moods where I think about the past and the people I was once close to, and wonder how things changed to make them what they are today. I don't necessarily have a positive or negative feeling about it, I just find it so interesting to see how my life has diverged in terms of the relationships I've had. You never think that things will be different shortly in the future, but then you look back and realize that you are not the same person you once were. We are so dynamic in that way; at least, I feel I am. I remember the strong opinions and feelings that I had as a 17-year-old, and believing that I would always feel that way. Some things have stayed with me, but a lot has shifted as a result of learning more about myself and the way that things actually are in the world. I find myself thinking about people I may have hurt in the past, regardless of how minor or major it was from my perspective. I worry that people hold things against to me to this day, even though by nature I tend put a lot of effort into resolving any sort of discontent. I am nowhere near perfect; I have burned a few bridges in my 21 years and am definitely not proud of any of it. The honest truth is that I tend to look at things too subjectively and end up taking everything too personally. Though, when I think about most of the people I used to be close to and aren't anymore (simply through the progression of life's many chapters), there's usually not a clear reason why we ever drifted. It makes me want to reach out to them and see how they are doing, just because. A lot of people find this to be a waste of time and emotions. To a certain extent, I'm not sure I agree. There's a reason why we once spent time with these people... they likely had qualities that we found to be a good addition to our outside influence. Relationships are what define who we are in a lot of ways. Our families, friends, coworkers, peers.... everyone. We are more influenced than we realize, and I think this lends itself to how we treat others. A small act of kindness can have major repercussions to somewhat of an untraceable extent. The way you treat someone, friend or foe, and the words you choose to say to them, will influence their attitude and will henceforth influence how they treat the next person, and so on. So why does everyone feel like they can't approach one another? Stop the silence. You'll never know when someone needs it most. 
Let no acquaintance be a wasted one.
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